Hi Anne,
I didn't mean to worry you with any of this,
of course you can't come to Jersey,
The depth to which I have been condemned is serious, and JM is backing the condemnation up,
I really dont feel able to go on.
haha, maybe I have morning sickness as well, would have to call the baby Jesus.
The last thing I wanted to do was let you know how bad things are in my life.
I have been told I am a serial liar and troublemaker,
The things I have been accused of lying about I have not lied about,
my crime is being autistic and not knowing how to live in a grim adult world when I am like a child.
I am not malicious but I am being told I am,
and I am in despair.
I hope that you feel better soon.
I cannot think about sailing or anything, I am too confused and ill.
I didn't even remember to go to college last night.
*****
I didn't mean to worry you with any of this,
of course you can't come to Jersey,
The depth to which I have been condemned is serious, and JM is backing the condemnation up,
I really dont feel able to go on.
haha, maybe I have morning sickness as well, would have to call the baby Jesus.
The last thing I wanted to do was let you know how bad things are in my life.
I have been told I am a serial liar and troublemaker,
The things I have been accused of lying about I have not lied about,
my crime is being autistic and not knowing how to live in a grim adult world when I am like a child.
I am not malicious but I am being told I am,
and I am in despair.
I hope that you feel better soon.
I cannot think about sailing or anything, I am too confused and ill.
I didn't even remember to go to college last night.
*****
To: ****** ******
Dear *******
How are you today? I wish there was some way
that I could help you - if there was I would do so. If I were well
enough I would come over to Jersey and be with you but I am not coping
very well myself at the moment. There's no way I could
cope with the journey. I just want to hug you and persuade you to think
about living instead of dieing because that would make me very sad. You
are a very worthwhile person and good at your job. Your employers
obviously think a lot of you and the plants cannot
manage to survive without your tender loving care. Just think about
enjoying the sunshine and the prospect of some sailing at the weekend -
forget about all those people who have caused grief in your life -
easier said than done but we have to do that sometimes
- just cut people out of our lives altogether if they upset us.
*** has gone off to do the shopping and I must
get showered and dressed before he gets back. I felt sick this morning -
whoops! morning sickness - but It is impossible for me to be pregnant
for a number of reasons. I haven't had anything
much to eat but, like you, I don't really fancy anything. They are
starting me on some different medication so perhaps that will do the
trick.
Please take care of yourself,
Love A
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